April Full Moon – A Time to Release and Let Go

Tonight, at around 7:30ish (Arizona time), the biggest and brightest Super Moon of 2020 will be rising up from the horizon. And me? Around that time, you’ll find me sitting in my wooden patio chair, soaking in the glow of that moon light upon my skin and warm orange and yellow flicker of flames dancing before my eyes in our small, round bon fire pit.

As I sit there silently looking at the moves of the flames with that big protective white moon hovering above, I’ll be actually participating in my first full moon ritual of releasing what is no longer serving me.

They say that the full moon affects our energy. The moon has the power to pull up the ocean water, creating waves and some believe that the moon also affects humans, seeing as how we are mostly made of water.

They also say that the full moon, is a time for inner reflection. During this moon phase, we should think about the things that no longer serve us and then release them, allowing us to be able to move forward.

Since this time in quarantine I have done more meditation than I have ever done before in my life. I’m talking hours of meditation, here. Through it all, I have discovered that there are A LOT of things I need to Let Go of.

I have these constant negative thoughts the seem to keep appearing. Thoughts, that in the bigger scheme of life, don’t even matter.

For example, I’ll randomly think about how that work person made a comment to me that I felt was rude. This invokes my anger festering up. I then begin imagining future scenario’s with this person, where I say the right thing. The right zing that’ll really punch him back. Make him feel the way I felt when he said this “comment”. Only then, a few minutes into this made up story, I’ll catch myself.

These thoughts, these emotions, they aren’t worth my time. I have better thoughts to move onto. And with that, I’ll quickly try to change the subject in my brain. My to go to is thinking about how cute my baby nephews smile is.

But, come into my brain a half hour later, and I’ll be in the same negative, worthless scenario. Only this time it’s about how I feel like I said a stupid comment during a work meeting, and how everyone probably hates me anyway, so who I am to even talk?!  And the cycle will repeat itself over and over again.

Progress

The good news? At least I’m catching myself in the act of this negative behavior. They say that’s the first step. (Some people are not as self aware.)

The bad news? I need to really release these issues, because it really is getting me nowhere. In fact, it’s a huge distraction when I’m trying to focus on moving forward.

So, yesterday after reading how the full moon is a time to release what no longer serves you, I’ve figured this literally is the perfect time, to let it all go once and for all.

The Ritual Plan

In order to really,  let it all go, I’ve come up with a plan. I don’t know if it’s the right plan…but for me it feels right.

I’ve gone through and written down all the things in my life that no longer serve me. Honestly, there are a lot of things. At this moment (and it’s still the morning), I have about 48 things.

Below are some examples:

  • Reading comments in a negative way.
  • Thinking that everyone is always trying to out do me.
  • Thinking the people in this world are against me.
  • Thinking I think small thoughts.

They say to write down all these things and then release them one by one. You should release it, by first thanking it and then telling it that it is no longer needed and it can leave now.

I will write all these non-serving items on bits of paper. And tonight as the full moon is rising up above, I will read each one aloud, thank it and then toss it into the fire.

 My plan will be reading each thought, thanking it and then throwing the paper into the fire symbolizing to myself that it is gone.

I have never done anything like this before, so I know I’ll feel a bit strange actually doing it. But I am a believer in Earth’s energy and if this allows me to Let Go of all these negative thoughts….then so be it.

After my bon fire release party, I plan on doing some more guided meditations to set the right intentions for moving forward. I’ll wake up tomorrow and see how I feel.

They say that this should be done every month. The full moon is here to allow us the time to figure out what is working and what isn’t working, to let go and move on.

So, whether you’re a believer or not, I’ll still ask….what’s holding you back? Are there some things in your life that you can release?

If you have some, maybe tonight plan on letting it go….